A child's perspective

Have been doing a little reading. Am currently reading this book "The curious incident of the Dog in the night-time". (Mark Haddon) Interesting read really. I mean, i think the child in the book, christopher is rather a genius. Like in the comic Calvin and Hobbes. I'm really enjoying the book. Not to mention the fact that i refuse to swop books to read Harry Potter's book first. Grinz.
Anyway, it is through this simple book that i realise that life ain't so tough after all. Somehow along the way, we grew up and left our simple logics in life behind. For me, i guess i would like to say i retained a little of that still. But it is gradually being chipped away by experiences in life. I mean, there are times when i believe i am still an absolute child at heart. Kinda hard to compromise the two. But it is done.
Been a little gloomy lately even with my new gadgets. Superman has broken his promise twice this week already. I guess he really has been busy. But then again, he has never done the same shit twice in a row before. I'm currently not talking to him, but i guess if he calls, i'll still pick up. Childish? I guess so. Just irritated with him. But then again, we did go out last wed only. There has been something on my mind since friday nite. Something that should not be bugging me that much.. but it is. It was a big deal on Friday night when it happened, it was something i wanted to share with Tour Guide. But after our little exchange of words/sms this afternoon, it suddenly seems like a silly thing to want to share it with them.
I guess if i think about it, i should have told Tour Guide why i wanted to see him. That i wanted to talk and also wanted his opinion on some things. But i guess there's always this really proud side of me that feels like sometimes, he has to read between the lines. And if he doesn't, then that's his problem. Just like when he offered to buy me the adidas sweater? To me, when i want to buy something for someone, i will just go ahead and buy it. I won;t ask the person for permission. But then again, it is my model of the world and it is not fair to impose that onto others. But i guess like i mentioned once before, it's his loss, not mine. Coz i know just how much i can give to the man of my dreams/life. But wed nite supper gave me a good reason to believe that Tour guide will never settle for one woman in his life. And i will never be that one woman. If it was meant to happen, it would have happened a long time ago. Right? And i am not willing to be his numerous woman. Guess we'll still be friends.. i think. At least i will still work on his birthday for him. Invited Superman and wife, Bambi and him. Should be a surprise. Not gg to put too much effort after that. Too many projects that need my attention.
Anyway, back to things about a child's perspective? Sometimes i wonder whether i too never grew up. I see things in a straight line fashion. A simple black and white and best if life came with a book explaining why somethings are so and somethings are not. But till then, i will be contented to throw my silly tantrums in a while, shut myself up when i feel like it and also, be a simple and loving friend to those that want my friendship. (Hmm, Sounds like i have some behavioural problems as well. Then again, Christopher made a really valid point. All of us are special needs coz we all have special needs)
Next time then...cheerios