As night falls, its the time of the night where one grows weary and tired. And its normal to feel this way. If you were on a journey and not sure when u will reach the end, then as night falls, its time to lay your knapsack down and turn in and lie down to sleep. For if you choose not to sleep, u might find yourself too tired to carry on or even if you did take some extra steps, you might die of exhaustion.
Tonight, as the weariness hits me in a wave, i realize now how my head had been right all this while. The things that i spoke to Superman this afternoon, about us being from different worlds, about how there can never be a happy ending to this fairy tale, has hit me back hard. Tonight as he once again turns a blind eye to my calls, in whichever manner, it dawn on me that i should have given up so long ago. That it was only coz i was in dreamland that i actually believed or bluff my brain to believe that there could be just so much more.
Its always how i am not understanding enough, how he has so much work to do, How i cannot expect him to give me more time or more attention. How i am too demanding. And from this moment, i guess he is right. I am demanding. I do want more. I do want more time, more attention, i want to be everything that he is scared of. With that thought in mind, i shall go off to dreamland and write tml.
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