The whole week

Haven't really been posting except for the MTVs that i thought was quite nice. Wanted to write a long post but haven't had the time to sort it all out and the time to sit down and seriously do some blogging. Finally! So, last post was last Thursday when i went to watch Dark Knight, and wanting to meet Darling. This was how Friday onwards went.
Friday morning, woke up smsing Darling. Managed to meet him. Guess keeping my fingers crossed really works. Hee.. Accompanied him for his medical appointment at Equity Plaza. Had breaky with him. Then while heading back, he said he had to go home for a while. Was actually quite sad. Was hoping to spend a while longer with him. But after some phone calls and smses, he came by to my place and we hung out for a while more before he headed to work. In the afternoon, Pic called to say he had FIR concert tickets. But must go collect them at SunPlaza. Then i asked Jaja whether she wanted to watch. But she said she didn't really like FIR. So we decided to give it a miss, and go for dinner at Vivo instead. Was quite looking forward to it coz i haven't been to Vivo in the longest of time. Anyway, i went to help Pic pick up the tickets, and then went to Bugis to pass the tix to Joanne and Jasmine. Then Jaja smsed to say she going to attend a friend's bday party. Was pretty upset at first. Like, the only reason why i didn't go for the FIR concert was because i didn't want to leave her alone. Then also sian coz already told Pic i was not going over to his place for dinner. Then Darling also tell me that he not free to see me because he had to bring his family out for dinner. So, because i was feeling a little moody and grumpy, i decided to go home and take a nap before waking up and seeing if i wanted to go DF or Butterfactory. Reached home, and saw Darling's sms. Apparently he was free already and asked if i wanted to hang out. Conclusion of Friday was, everything happens for a reason. If i had gone out with Jaja at Vivo, then i wouldn't have seen Darling. If i had gone to Pic's place for dinner, i also wouldn't have seen Darling. So we managed to hang out for a while before we both went home. Then Pic smsed to say he was at DF. Mich smsed also. But i was tired. Very tired. Very contented. And very in love and decided to call it an early night. Ok, not so early. But it was like 1ish.
Saturday was another beautiful beautiful day. Darling sms me in the morning again. He had gone to do some charity thingee. So was rather surprised to see his sms. Of course it brightened up my day. So the morning started well and i was happy. Then subsequently, he said he wanted to bring me out for lunch. Which was like way way cool coz i usually don't get to see him on Saturdays if he doesn't work. So he brought me out, we had a really nice meal together. At a decent price even before we headed home. It was National Day. So he said wanted to watch national day parade on tele. Then i reached home, decided that i wanted to nap for a while. I've been constantly tired. Not sure why also. Also waiting for Pic to reply to my sms. Coz he sms to say he was pissed that i didn't go DF. Then i told him that i will buy him dinner. He say want dinner and movie. So i said ok. Ask him how many people were going and he said not confirm because he had sprained his ankle. But i felt at least i had appeased him a bit. Hee... Then Pic woke me up from my sleep at about 7 and said he wanted to eat KFC. Ask me pack KFC to his place. So i ask him issit we watching movie, then he say after dinner then decide. Reached his place, then he said he had to go Sentosa for something. Then ask me be his driver coz Jamie was tired. So ok lor. Then after Sentosa, Pic said Wen Biao and Lindy were at Partyworld and ask if i wanted to go. Quite long never go partyworld liaoz, so off we went. But i am either getting old or really losing my stamina. Coz by about 3am, i was damn tired. But they were obviously not done singing yet. So they extended another hour i think. And finally we left at 4ish. Then wanted to quickly send him home. But Lindy and Wen Biao ask us go eat wanton mee. So we went to Tanglin Halt for wanton mee. Then finally dropped Pic off at his place before heading home. Was so tired. Fell asleep at about 6 in the morning. Yawn
Sunday was a day of mixed emotions i guess. Woke up and once again saw Darling's sms. But could tell from his sms that he was a little worried about me. So i texted him back. But he sounded grumpy from his replies. And in one of his sms, he said he was a little moody. Also didn't know what to do, but just told him we going to meet up later tonight already. Then ask him to cheer up. By afternoon, he sent me an email saying he was moody and why he felt that way. Aiyo. He said he felt jealous. *Faint* Anyway, i replied his email, tried to console him and wasn't even sure if he was still going to meet me to bring me to Vivo in the evening. Was quite sad because i actually wanted to bring him there and buy him a present. Was just in a mood to pamper him. But throughout our whole shopping trip, he was still moody moody. No mood to shop. So in the end go dinner instead. Actually i saw this top at adidas. Quite similar to this hush puppy shirt he has. Then wanted to buy it then when we go out can wear. So like got couple t shirt. But because he was in such a grumpy mood, i also never tell him. In fact, i had planned the evening for him already. But when i suggested my plan to him, he wasn't very keen. I didn't want to push the issue because i was already rather disappointed and upset by then. But the night ended alright coz eventually we went to our favourite place to hang out and chill out. Chatted and headed home.
Monday morning, Darling had to be home after work so didn't manage to get to meet him. Then was supposed to have a meeting in the evening, so cannot see him also. Was quite gloomy. Coz knowing he was going away this week, we had little time to spend with each other this week. He told me he had dinner plans on Tuesday and Wednesday evening and thursday evening he would be away for his holiday already. But no choice. So didn't see him in the morning. Then my meeting got cancelled, so decided to go home after appointment. Then damn funny thing happened. I called Darling to ask if he was free just for a while to come over to my place coz parents were out. So, he popped by my place before going home. Then all of a sudden, my mum came home. Horror of horrors. And she knew there was someone at home. Anyway, Darling was stuck in my room for a while. Maybe less then half an hour. But if felt like hours lor. Was so damn worried. Worried my mum would see him, then make trouble for him. Then was thinking that he was going to be late. That his plans would be disrupted and he would be grumpy and angry with me again. Anyway, managed to smuggle him out of my room before mum saw him. But he left his shoes at my place and ran barefoot downstairs and drove off. At that point of time, it so wasn't funny. But now, looking back, damn hilarious lah. Like something you will find in a drama serial only. Haa.. Anyway, he managed to come out for a while after that and we met up. I thought it was sweet of him because i was quite affected by the almost getting caught thing.
Tuesday morning, was when Darling and I actually had a date with each other. He was really sweet, spent time with me and bought be present. Hehe.. Then not supposed to see him in the evening, but we managed to meet up again, and we went for dinner together. Was nice really. Hehe. Then also dun know why, our conversation in the car got really serious and then also my fault lah. I got a little emo when he talked about my life, my past. Like he always has the idea that i'm very proud of my past. But that's not true lor. I think when he asked me what i was passionate about in my life, that was when the first tear dropped. I suppose i just really need to think hard about it. Anyway, we parted late. Didn't even realise it was so late. We got carried away i suppose. But was kinda worried coz when we were talking, i asked him some questions. And every time i ask him questions, he will get emo the next day. =( But we both decided it was late and headed home. Plus we were going to meet in the morning anyway.
Wednesday, morning already had sad sad news. He said he couldn't meet up with me. Then i like quite sian coz i was really looking forward to it. And he flying off on Thursday and i flying off on Friday. So we would not get to see each other for many days after that. I'm not sure if it was the questions i posed the night before that got him upset and therefore he didn't want to see me or what. Anyway, he whole day just like bo chup bo chup me. So i also dunno what's wrong. Then didn't get much chance to talk to him. Just sms him back and forth. And then all his sms also never say he love me or anything. So started to feel a little more insecure. Then managed to see him for a while in the evening to see a client. But after the appointment, he was like quite irritated and edgy. I also didn't know what to say at that point of time because the whole day had been sorta lousy. And i just didn't want to push the issue already. Anyway, i told him i was going to watch movie with Pic and Jamie in the evening since he was going for dinner. Then he also never say anything. Until much later in the evening, he smsed to ask me not to go home so late. But things just went downhill from there. Smses flew back and forth. And misunderstandings grew. I felt like he was rather sarcastic. His replies were horrid. But the last straw was when he implied i called Pic my darling. Anyway, already quite sian about the whole day, the initial smses. So didn't go watch movie with Pic and Jamie. Then just decided i didn't want to fight with him. Coz going away already. Then i know if he is upset with me, i also would be unhappy. If he is unhappy, i also will be unhappy. So i just tell him i was going to sleep. At least put a stop to all the smses. Then no more misunderstandings can occur. Actually i don't really like to communicate through sms. I think it sometimes can get misleading. Flirting via sms is fine. Communication really needs to be done through words.
Finally, thursday morning. Spent a little time with him this morning. We had a short talk. Anyway, at least it seems like we're both no longer upset with one another. So that's cool. He's gone off to KL and i'm flying off tomorrow. Nothing much to update. Depending on my mood and how bored i am in HK, i'll then decide whether to blog. But basically, that was the week summed up. Not really summary lah.
Hmm.. i miss my Darling already. Wonder what he is doing now. Wish i was there with him though. But i guess i wish he could go Hong Kong with me more. Anyway, later. Going to leave ofc liaoz. Hee...

This was from him to me via ecard yesterday:
亲爱的宝贝

今天是跟你在一起的第92天。
我们在一起的酸甜苦辣，只有我们自己心里知道。
生活中的痛苦永远比甜蜜清晰，我们都伤害过彼此。
我们为了不一样的事情争执过上百次，
有些事情现在想起来都觉得幼稚。

虽然我们的爱情是酸甜苦辣，我曾经甚至怀疑。
怀疑我们最终是否能走到最后。
很多人说我们是不可能的。
伤害你，伤害了我最爱的你。
我让你灰心，我让你不再相信我们的爱情。
我甚至让你有了不再那么爱我的错觉。

你曾经对我说：“宝贝我也会疼啊。”
短短的一句话，我会想起，心中都有说不出的心疼。
有的时候我觉得自己罪大恶极。
我怎能这样伤害自己的宝贝？
我心中曾经默默的对自己发誓。
以后不管你做什么我都不能动怒。
就算有什么情绪也要自己调整，不能让你为难。
以后你要是不开心了，我要竭尽所能哄你开心。
以后你要是有什么心事了，我一定要第一个察觉。

自从我们聊过之后，我才发现自己的情绪。
深深的影响到了我们的关系，我不喜欢这样。
所以我觉得要调整自己，要好好面对我们的问题。
你说，你也会帮我的，让我慢慢调整，你也会调整自己。
我好开心，真的由衷地高兴，我第一次深深地觉得。
就算两个人在一起，只要心是在一起的，一切都不会是问题。

其实，爱一个人很简单。
所以，我只要，静静地爱你。
全神贯注的，一心一意的爱着你。
只要你还需要我，我就永远在你身边。
就算有一天你不再爱我了，我对你的爱也不会停止。
我会永远静静地爱着你。

I love You my little princess.