Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Happy Chinese New Year

Oh another year has passed in a flash. Funny how the only thing constant in life is this word called CHANGE.
Someone once told me. Every moment that you choose to remain the same, you are actually moving backwards. Time moves forward. And if you stand still, in a blink of an eye, you've been swept to the past.
I'm still not sure how this all works out. But i find history repeating itself in my life over and over again. I'm told that your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. So could it be that i'm going around in circles in my head? Hmmm
For those that have kept abreast with my life, the two people that've i've rambled non-stop about in my blog are still the two people who are bugging me.
In the last few months, there have been interesting developments. Guardian has featured strongly in my life as he is going through a very rough patch on his own. I've done as much as a friend can do. And yet, i'm still stumped as to whether i will ever feel the same way about him. I truly loved him once. But i've grown up. And 11 years is a long time. A long time for people to change and move on with life. So, i'm still as confused as ever. I adore his company at times and he is still the most comfortable person i have in my life to chill out with and his hugs, when i am down are still the most heart warming.
As for TG, things seem to be going in the opposite direction from where i want to go. I'm not sure if it's coz his parents have not been well and there seems to be a lot of changes happening in his work life. Or that we've simply reached the point where we are too comfortable being friends. There is always this point where two people are two comfortable being friends to want to push the relationship further. Or it could also be that he is just not intersted and i don't get the picture. Oh well...
Other then my pathetic, messy and confusing love life, i would say everything has gone pretty smoothly. Till i next blog, happy chinese new year all!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Filliae Melioris Aevi

You are in charge of your feelings, beliefs and actions.
And you teach others how to behave towards you.
While you cannot change other people, you can influence them through your own behaviour and actions.
By being a living role model of what you want to receive from others,
you create more of what you want in life.

The Eagle and the Wolf


There is a great battle that rages inside me
One side is the soaring eagle.
Everything that the eagle stands for is
good and true
and beautiful, and it soars above the clouds.
Even though it dips down into the valley, it lays
its eggs on the mountain tops.
The other side of me is the howling wolf.
And that raging, howling wolf represents the
worst that's in me.
He eats upon my downfalls and justifies himself
by his presence in the pack.
Who wins the great battle?
THE ONE I FEED!