Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Happy Chinese New Year

Oh another year has passed in a flash. Funny how the only thing constant in life is this word called CHANGE.
Someone once told me. Every moment that you choose to remain the same, you are actually moving backwards. Time moves forward. And if you stand still, in a blink of an eye, you've been swept to the past.
I'm still not sure how this all works out. But i find history repeating itself in my life over and over again. I'm told that your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. So could it be that i'm going around in circles in my head? Hmmm
For those that have kept abreast with my life, the two people that've i've rambled non-stop about in my blog are still the two people who are bugging me.
In the last few months, there have been interesting developments. Guardian has featured strongly in my life as he is going through a very rough patch on his own. I've done as much as a friend can do. And yet, i'm still stumped as to whether i will ever feel the same way about him. I truly loved him once. But i've grown up. And 11 years is a long time. A long time for people to change and move on with life. So, i'm still as confused as ever. I adore his company at times and he is still the most comfortable person i have in my life to chill out with and his hugs, when i am down are still the most heart warming.
As for TG, things seem to be going in the opposite direction from where i want to go. I'm not sure if it's coz his parents have not been well and there seems to be a lot of changes happening in his work life. Or that we've simply reached the point where we are too comfortable being friends. There is always this point where two people are two comfortable being friends to want to push the relationship further. Or it could also be that he is just not intersted and i don't get the picture. Oh well...
Other then my pathetic, messy and confusing love life, i would say everything has gone pretty smoothly. Till i next blog, happy chinese new year all!

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