Monday, April 20, 2009

It's been a while

It's been a while since i've sat down to blog. Then again, it's been a while since i've had any inkling of a feeling whatsoever to blog about anything that has gone on in my life. I suppose one of the reasons for this is because i was currently stuck in a repetitive cycle and there was really nothing new to update. So has that cycle changed?
Well, i suppose to a certain degree there has been one teeny weeny change. So what's new you ask? For once, i have a new job. And am currently sitting in training, supposedly listening to what the trainer is talkinng about without really listening. GOD... class is so boring! And the trainer speaks at an incredibily slow rate. Sigh
But it is a must and i must strive on. Haha
So, what else has been going on? It's over for those who probably have that one question in their mind. And no. I didn't end things. And yes, i am still upset about it. But yes, i will be fine. I will be able to get over things and things will be fine again i'm pretty much sure of it.
Did i wish it hasn't ended? Well, in fact, i'm pretty confused myself. I think of it in the long run and i'm sure it's for the better. It was a relationship that was going no where in the first place. But at the same time, i am finding it a little hard to let go of the relationship on the whole. Call me naive or silly. But i really did think this was for the long haul. Oh well, i'm sure things will get better. And if you get the feeling that i'm just reassuring myself, dun mention it. Coz i am. I doing my best to believe it.
Relationships aside, new work has just started out and i have been trying to learn as much as possible and thinking of new ways to do as much as possible so i can do really well and succeed. In fact, i haven't had that sort of drive for a long time already. Which is a good thing really. It's a nice feeling because i sort of feel that feeling was gone a long time already. =)

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