Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Looking forward to the holidays

For all the things that have gone wrong and can go wrong, it has materialized. I remember murphy's law once. What can go wrong, will go wrong. And don't try to make anything idiotproof coz idiots are ingenious people. So interesting. Anyway, for all the shitty planning and lack of money, it dawned on me that i was going away in less then 48 hours and i'm really looking forward to it. Yes, it might be a budget trip, might not have much shopping money or such, but at the end of the day, it feels good to get out of Singapore and head somewhere else.
There is a part of me that is extremely happy as i know that this trip signifies many new things for me. Coming back, i'll be officially jobless and would start on jobs that have no fixed pay and only project based or commission based. Coming back, i start coaching the kids camps and spending my time on more worthwhile things. Going away signifies a change i guess. A change of all bad things ending and only more good things to come.
Don't ask me why i feel this way. But each time i go away, i feel like that. Maybe its my own way of running away from all the unpleasant things and when i come back, with a brand new perspective, things will be different. Then again, its just a perspective. And only i can change my perspective. But, somehow, it feels good. (Not the broke part) But the part that it really is so easy to please the human brain. And therefore, i guess, i'm only looking forward to going away to spending time with grans, auntie and cousins. It feels good to be away to join another family for a while. Maybe i too am getting too caught up in the never ending cycle here in Singapore.

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