Pain.... hurt.... Anger.... Disappointment..... Hate.......
Five very powerful emotions all mixed together into one. Directed inwardly. I feel like i've failed. Something so simple and so beautiful. I've ruined. I constantly find it harder to forgive myself as compared to forgiving others. I am lost. I just want to inflict the most excruciating physical pain on myself so that it can dull away the feelings i have inside. I desperately searched for a solution. I grasped at straws. But found myself clutching thin air.
Failure. Failed. I can only apologize for my mistakes. For the wrong i have done. And wished somehow, there was more i could do. And yet i knew, there was none. I screwed up. I fucked it up! I'm sorry!
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