Bloody tired man. Slept at close to 8am this morning after a night out. Think i really have to stop doing this. Anyway, woke up at 1pm to go for an appointment. Thank goodness Superman called. If not i think i might not have heard the alarm and might have just overslept. Anyway, he ask to meet at 4pm. Told him i'll meet him after my appointment.
Finished my appointment at 6pm. Headed down to meet him, only to have them tell me they were leaving. But i guess, as with my character, i could hardly get angry could i? After all, i really did have an important appointment. Anyway, hung out with B2 for a while. Actually that's an understatement. We had dinner, and later went for drinks. It's amazing how similar B2 and myself are in thinking. Hence the name B2. Anyway, i cannot for the life of me, vocalise into words how i feel about all that was shared. And if there is such a thing as a soulmate in this world, B2 must be it. There was just so much to share, and we could complete each other's sentence. I'm glad that its only the 2nd day of the new year, and yet, i feel like i've found a new friend. And funny, i think B2 will be a good friend. Call it gut instinct.
Anyway, as usual, TG said the last time we were out for dinner that he'll meet me for coffee today. The call never came, i sms him, he didn't reply. Its becoming a trend that he'll tell me some day, or date, and not follow up on it. I don't want to call him or sms him coz i guess i'm still sore about that night. Sometimes, when i think about him, i feel bad. Coz i wonder, if i should disappear from the face of the earth, would he even notice? Would he even know that i'm dead? And most importantly, would he even bother or care? I seem to be so low on his to contact list, and nothing that i'm doing seems to bring me one step closer. Not forgetting his statement about how, when a girl gives him her no, he thinks of her as cheap. Unless of course she is Brooke Shields. And then, his statement about how, if they want to sleep with him, he will also find it a lack of challenge and not bother about them. Maybe that's how he feels about me? Not sure. But i only know that one line hurt. More then walking into the room and seeing COW with another woman. More then when Guardian said he was leaving for good or getting married. I've always wondered why man cannot be sensitive enough to know that when a girl likes you, whether you like her or not, you should never ask her to hook up with someone else, sleep with someone else or just go date someone else. It's like a double whamy. First you don't like me, then you treat me like a product, to be given away or sold to the first buyer that comes along, coz u want to get it as far away from you as possible. Anyway, enough rambling. Late. Need to sleep. And its too early in the year to be distressed about these matters. Cheerios
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