I typed out my whole bloody blog, and somehow the page hung, and now my whole blog has to be retyped. And i can't even remember what i typed. Damn....
My feel to blog vanished with the lost of the posting. sighz....
Alright, here we go again. Abridged version this time though. Maybe if i'm in a better mood later i'll type a more complete version.
Spent day getting ipod shuffle that i got as a present from TG to work. Didn't work after 16 hours. Gave up. Was chatting with TG on Msn. Shared with him yesterday's post i think. Got him a little worked up. Settled that. Gave baby a name. DJ. Went for dinner, met two friends. One feels crappy after ex bf finds a new girl. She already has a bf. And i wonder why people dun treasure who they have. Went for coffee after that.
Smsed TG to ask if he was joining Superman and myself to party. Got negative reply. Went to meet Superman at Thumper. Told me TG was turning up after all. Happy. Met TG and his two friends. Had an interesting conversation admist the noise. Debate about mankind, the thrill of the chase, and the sense of achievement and contentment. TG was vehement, i was fervid, about our POVs.
I subscribe to the zen theory, he didn't. Realised that i was in self denial admist it. Why? Go read The Devil and Miss Pyrm by Paulo Coelho. You'll understand. Recalled friend that came back from Cambodia doing community service. Same issue. Want to stay there for life coz of the life they lead. Very contented. But is it possible knowing that there is so much out there?
So, finally left Thumper with TG. Spent another hour plus chatting at the carpark. Talked about stuff in general. Got some answers to some questions. Was mind provoking and yet gave me new insight. He said i was pushy. It was one claim i couldn't refute. Finally talked for too long. Tired. Wanted to head back. Night was a topsy turvy of emotion. Just as i felt that the loop was closed. He pulled a bunny out of the hat.
Oki. This was the part i got to before the computer hung on me. I was bloody writing a thesis paper on the subject of contentment and achievement. But guess you have to wait another couple of days when i feel more inclined to write and its not 6 in the morning.
So here we were, tired, after standing at the carpark for close to 2 hrs. And we'd just hugged and given our customary pecks when he says we'll do something come March. And i say, i'm a healthy and energetic person and its a long wait till then. And he said, well i'm sure you can find a filler. Of course this wasn't how it all went. But that's the gist of it.
Ouch. And i guess someone told me once before that my face is like an open book. The hurt must have been evident coz he retracted and said it was a joke when i said, alright, since you've already given the green light, then why not. I mean what the heck was i expected to say? So he asked if i had to take it so seriously. Maybe i over reacted, but one word summed it up. OUCH.
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