Thursday, December 29, 2005

Post Christmas

Alright. I admit. I was just lazy to blog. Sue me.
After all the bells have stopped ringing, after all the presents have been distributed by Santa's helpers, after all the laughter and all the cheer, after all the alcohol has subsided, i must finally admit that i did do something stupid after all. Shan't say what it is. But this is one Christmas i'll remember. Not so much for that one stupid act but rather for the fact that i spent the season of merry making being sick. Sighz. Such is life.
Shall stop being such a grouch. Had a relatively pleasant Christmas if i overlook the above mentioned incidents. Had 2 Christmas eve parties to attend, 2 Christmas events to attend, and one post Christmas day party to top it off. And the there was the movie gala on the 27th. All in all i guess it was great, if i wasn't so busy being in severe pain. At least now i'm fully recovered and rearing to go. At least new year will be pleasant. More parties.
Got many presents this year. Got a wallet, a necklace, 2 bracelets, lots of toiletries, couple of toys. Guess Santa must have felt that i was a good girl this year. Either that or i'm blessed with many good friends in my life who always see it fit to make me feel loved. I only bought presents for 5 people. Mum, brother, my star, a special friend and Mr Tour Guide.
Anyway, enough of rambling about Christmas. It was fine. Overall, a 7 out of a 10.
Last night, i was out with 2 friends, and we got in talking about us and the things people do in general. And something hit me. It was a statement that one of the girls made. Something about starting and ending your day with a lie.
I hate it when friends lie to me. No, i am no saint and i am prone to occasional lying. White lies really. But i never deliberately lie so that i can do something else. I'll fib once in a while when people ask if i have money although sometimes, i'm not certain when the next pay check is coming. If it's just an acquaintence, i'll fib so that i don't have to go out and meet the person if i'm real tired. But, if its a close friend or someone i truly care about, you get the truth and the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Is it then too much to ask for the person to do the same? To let me know when they have something on, or to let me know when they can't meet up? Or simply coz they have other engagements. Is it really so hard to tell the truth? Or is it really so darn difficult to enlighten me with the truth. Do i actually look like i'll blow up or that i can't handle the truth? Oh well, life is such i guess. And today, maybe if i had confronted the person, i would have gotten the truth. Or maybe not. Who knows. All i know is that i feel confused. And slightly betrayed. And i wonder and i wonder, whether between friends, its too much to ask for honesty.

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