Today i went out partying at the once monthly two queens event. Its really funny how a party nite that is meant to be fun turned out the way it was. A friend had a fight with her "friend with benefits". And it turned ugly. I guess at that point of time, i was sort of pissed. I mean, when u start one of this FWB relationships, you need to draw the line and know where you are heading. If one person chooses to blur the lines all the time, then is it really any one's fault but her own?
I guess as with all relationships, this one is no more complicated then any others. But it really did set me thinking. Is this really what relationships are all about? It was even worse since i just came from a wedding preparation of ger's wedding. And with so many of my friends getting married this month, i guess i really am at a loss. Why is it so hard for two people to get together let alone stay together?
I just found out tour guides age 3 days back. I guess i was shocked for a while. And i guess i haven been bloggin recently coz i really dun noe what to blog about. Kinda sad that my life is a constant routine that i'm desperately trying to get out of. I told someone this the other day. What truly matters is that you love the person with all your heart. And if you love the person with all your heart, then i guess there is no need to quarrel all the time. You know, i really believe quarrels come from the fact that there is a party that wants more while there is the other party which is unwilling to give more. Then at a time like this, one needs to make the decision of which is the lesser of two evils. To stay on and tolerate or to move on. Whichever decision, it would not be easy. And if it was so tough, then one knows that its not meant to be in the first place. Why force something that is not mean to be in the first place?
One day, if tour guide and i fight over this issue, i will know that its over. OR maybe its a matter of pride, of which i have close to none when it comes to someone i truly adore. Maybe with him, i will choose to walk away when the time is right.. till then, i live to fight another day.
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