'Fess up

Ok! I confess. I had a lazy swimming session just now. Sometimes i wonder if it's just my mind playing me or am i really in control of my mind. Anyway, went to join the Trifam people for Monday swims after not swimming for like 3 weeks. Eh, i admit if this was a race, i probably DNS. Yeah, i got into the pool, went about swimming, but didn't push hard at all. Basically i just went through with the motion, but my heart was not there already. So physically i swam, mentally, i was probably at home sitting on the couch watching tele. On a scale of one to ten, i would say i gave it probably 50%. I guess i was plain lazy and of course i could come up with a million and 1 reasons why i didn't push myself, but i would probably be lying.
But, on the flip side, i guess i just wanted to ease back into training. After all, i really haven't been training for goodness knows how long that i didn't want the first session to be one of any mishap. Anyway, my leg was hurting as well. So i guess 50% ain't all that bad =P
So basically it was a relatively easy session for me. I didn't even complete the workout. But i'm entitled to some off days i guess.. Haa... Anyway, will be getting back into the flow of things. Have slacked off long enough. And really need the adrenaline flow and all. Plus, i think i am starting to get flabby. Not a good thing. *shakes head
Eh, still thinking of what races i want to do this year. Just feels weird i guess. I know i planned on doing some races earlier this year, but somehow, i have had a change of heart. And now i am super undecided. I guess i have some thoughts. One would be to spend this year just building base, getting fitter, stronger, and then start racing next year. The down side to this is, because i have no races to look forward to, i don't feel compelled to put in more hours to train. However, if i start racing too early, and i don't do well, i will get disheartened. Double edged sword i suppose. I suppose this is another thing i would probably have to sort out on my own and will have a conclusion before my birthday!
Eh, on to another topic. Superman called earlier this morning and asked if i wanted to go to Borocai (not sure how it's spelt) with them next month. I was about to agree. After all, this was meant to be last year's trip. Since we went to Shanghai early on in the year, we didn't get a chance to go away together after that. But, it seems to be a couple's trip. Superman and wife, Maurice and gf to be hopefully, and another couple. So i figured, if i really did go, it would be kinda weird. Anyway, still waiting for a friend to reply. If he goes, then it's probably the same group that went to Shanghai plus Maurice and gf to be. Then probably i would reconsider my answer. It's been ages since we last went away together. Still considering... Hmm.. to go or not to go...
Plus point, it has a beautiful beautiful beach! And nice clear waters. And a whole 10 days at a beach resort.. My kind of life. Minus point, expensive and i am feeling very non couple-ly at the moment. Haa... Oh well, will sleep on it and maybe i will have a vision in my dreams! Nitez u all!