Thursday, November 03, 2005

Back with reluctance

Just returned back to Singapore with much reluctance. I guess if i had a chance to go to hong kong and work, i would rush to do it. Doesn't matter if the pay ain't that great. As long as i can survive, i would love to stay there. I guess there are a couple of reasons why i love it there so much. The main importance is tha ti guess the family there is so much sweeter then the family i have here. I guess sometimes the grass on the other side is always greener. However, it really is true. I mean, i think i have had dinner as a family more often there then i ever had in a year over here in Singapore. Not to mention home cooked food.
My friend did turn up eventually. I'm not sure how to react still. I guess i'm still contemplating. He is by far a really sweet man. Different from how he is in Singapore. Yet at the same time, all i needed from him at the end of the two days were just some simple reassuring words that these two beautiful days didn't change our friendship or that he might like to see me again. But then again, maybe he had no such intention of seeing me again and therefore didn't say anything. But then again, i guess at the end of the day, a girl would still have liked to hear from the man that he enjoyed her company. Then again, maybe it was really just meant to be a holiday fling or even an ONS. And therefore, no comments were warranted. And i think i wasn't that great in bed. Then again, these things do take some time and some getting used to.
I guess all i can say is that i knew the stakes before i decided to go. However, didn't calculate on enjoying his company all that much. After all, back here in Singapore, we fight all the time over the most nonsensical things that sometimes i wonder why we are even friends. But i guess over there in Hong Kong, it was different. Could be he was more relaxed, or could be i was determined not to fight with him. Whatever the case, i know i did enjoy his company although i knew when he left that we were worlds apart. There is a part of me that wonders after i return him the stuff he had left at the hotel room and his MTR card, will we ever see each other again outside the confines of our mutual friends. Only time will tell i guess.
Will post more later when i wake. Really need to hit the sack now.. Too darn tired.

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